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Fri Apr 10, 2009, 8:17 AM
First 10 people who reply to this entry get featured in my next journal!
Only catch is you have to feature people in your next journal also.

I'm not one for chain-anythings except maybe the old-fashioned metal type.
However, I think this is just generally a good idea to help spread people's work among people who may have been previously unaware of it.

Reeeadddyyyy.... GO!!

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  • Mood: Wow!
  • Listening to: The heater blowing
  • Reading: Pill bottles
  • Watching: Weird dreams
  • Playing: EVE
  • Eating: French toast and sandwiches!
  • Drinking: Filtered water and vitamin water!

Fear is the mind-killer

Sat May 24, 2008, 9:46 PM
"I will not fear
Fear is the mindkiller,
Fear is the little death
That brings total Oblivion
I will permit my fear to pass
Over me and through me
And where it has gone
I will turn the inner eye
Nothing will be there
Only I will remain."
-Frank Herbert

  • Mood: Fear

Full but still Empty

Wed May 21, 2008, 1:04 PM
Token sheets of records burning psychosomatic negligee
A forced ensuing mindless butchering malcontented disarray
Killing the soft scent of desire bloom forth a maiden's fire
Severed sutures closing mouths opened again to speak to sire
Answer back and broken up spread flee from gunfire blossoms fresh
Flowers of dead the spreading petals from the corpse and dirt with mesh
Don't gasp they can hear the pain the fear the pleasure faint
Falling fighting tossing down aloft aground claw it up and face your taint
Make up face down tears seeping from your eyes floating listless by
Measured byproduct fouled attempt at existence gone awry
Be mind-full of your soul-empty and pray to gods long dead
Me myself I'll take the road that leads towards the end in my head

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Off the cuff again, sometimes it just needs to come out.

  • Mood: High
  • Listening to: Last.fm My Neighbourhood
  • Reading: HP Lovecraft
  • Watching: A New Hope - Andiwan edit
  • Playing: Kane & Lynch
  • Eating: Sushi
  • Drinking: Vitamin Water

Last night at a party

Sat May 10, 2008, 11:38 AM
0 "Uhm, was your bathroom tagged 20 minutes ago?"
1 "What? No!"
0 "Well it is now"
1 "Alright everybody out!"
0 "Do I have permission to run people out?"
1 "Yes, there a few people that can stay though"
0 "Okay, I'll figure out who they are"

Stuff happens, people leave. Only a couple people left.

1 "Oh my god someone tagged my bathroom! It looks like shit!"
0 "It's okay, I've seen this happen before, you have white walls, it'll be easy to cover up"

After everyone else is out, 1 crashes in her bed, 0 gets his coat out of her closet, checks on her, and is about to leave.

0 "Dude lock the door behind me"
2 "Yeahhhh.. yeah man... you're a ridiculously nice guy... you know that?"
0 "Yeah, it is ridiculous. Lock the door behind me okay?"
2 "Huh? Oh.. Yeah man.."

2 is drunk off his ass and is supposed to pass out on the couch.
0 leaves and stands outside talking to some people.

People who left and aren't aware the party is over try to come back while 0 is still outside, 2 didn't lock the door, of course.

0 "Hey hey! Party is over dude!"
0 "Do you live here? No? Okay go somewhere else then!"

1 comes out of her room to see 0 herding people out (again).

3 "Hey, what happened? Sorry I got here late."

1 starts crying on 3.

0 looks at 2.

0 "I thought I told you to lock the door."
2 "I tried man... I tried.."
0 "It's okay. It's all good. Just chill."
2 "I tried.. they just came in.."
0 "It's okay, forget it, its all good"

0 goes to leave, asks 1 if she's okay.

1 "Yeah, my mom is coming to pick me up, I'm just upset. I want to go to my mom's and sleep."
0 "Cool, take care, it'll be okay."

Suddenly some weird fucker comes in the back door (apparently also not locked by anyone).

4 "WHERES THE KOREAN?"
1 "Uhh?"
3 "Korean?"
0 "Party is over, we don't know a Korean, everybody left, you need to leave."
4 "I'M WITH THE ITALIANS, WHERES THE KOREAN"
3 "What korean?"
1 "Everybody left.."
0 "I don't care who you're with, you're leaving now, there is no Korean, everyone left."
4 "WHERE IS HE?"
0 "There is no Korean, leave, everyone is gone."

0 keeps walking towards 4 until he leaves out the back door. 0 picks up a broken chair leg and locks the door behind 4.

0 "I'm going to fuck this guy up if he tries to get back in here."

0 goes back to 1, 2, and 3.

0 "I'm not leaving until I'm sure you're safe"
1 "Mom's coming to pick me"
0 "Okay, I'll walk you out when she gets here"
1 "Thanks"

3 "What the fuck was up with that guy?"
0 "Dunno. I wasn't worried though, that dude had my back"

0 points to 2 half passed out on the couch.

2 "Yeah man.. I'd fuck him up.. Yeah.."
0 "See? I was all good."

1's mom shows up.

0 "Lock the door for real this time, okay?"
2 "Yeah man.."
0 "Right."
3 "Is the back door locked?"
0 "Go check it"
3 "Sure"

0 walks 1 out, gives her a hug. Waves as she leaves.

0 calls his dad to tell him how drunk and pissed off at shit he is, and walks 2 miles home at 2am past a graveyard.

It was a good night.

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True story, happened to me last night.
Details and names removed to protect the guilty.

  • Mood: Shocked
  • Listening to: NIN, VAC, 16 Volt
  • Reading: HP Lovecraft
  • Watching: The movie that is my life
  • Playing: Like I just don't care
  • Eating: My foot
  • Drinking: The good stuff

Read my shit

Thu Apr 17, 2008, 12:11 AM
I started reading HP Lovecraft, blah blah blah, its cool, I tried writing cyberhorrorsciencepunkfantasy its blah blah blah. Go read it and stuf because blah blah blah.

I really just wanted that devsecret thing off my front page.

  • Mood: Disbelief
  • Listening to: rhythm noise, dark ambient, industrial
  • Reading: HP Lovecraft
  • Watching: The clock tick 3am
  • Playing: UT3
  • Eating: Spaghetti
  • Drinking: Orange juice

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